As the new year begins I’m finally starting to feel like myself again, sort of.
The end of the holiday season had some unexpected challenges for me. While I tried to overcome these, I failed miserably.
As you know my son and I did a countdown to Christmas with Kindness and all was going well. We were giving and it felt great! Until, I gave too much of myself. I gave up what wasn’t mine to give and I really put our family in a bind. It wasn’t a fun situation.
As the new year began, I was hoping to write an inspiring tale of giving for the holiday season, but I realized while we did complete our countdown, I failed giving in other ways.
While thinking of this it reminded me of an encounter I had many years ago. Our family lived in San Diego at the time. I was on my way home from work and had stopped at the store. While driving from the parking lot I noticed an elderly man walking. I rolled down my window to ask if he needed help and I guess my stopping was an assumption to give him a ride and he got in my car. I didn’t really mind, I figured he must not live too far and I would help him home.
Then, he started to tell me where in lived, in Spanish. I don’t speak Spanish. Pretty soon his hands were flailing as he was trying to give directions and I was trying to follow them. It was a mess. We circled all over and eventually he just said “stop, stop!” In the middle of a grocery store parking lot. Different from where we started. I was so flabberghasted I let him out, only to realize this was not where he needed to be. I felt like an ass.
This was not my first failed attempt to help someone and I’m certain it won’t be my last. I’ve had larger, more monumental failures and some that aren’t so bad.
In the end I will continue to try and help, but I will probably be a little more hesitant. Analyze the situation and see if I can help in the ways needed. I also write this to help anyone else who may have failed in their acts of kindness. We can’t win them all, but that doesn’t mean we should stop trying.
For our Christmas kindness countdown my son’s and I spread a lot of joy! For now, I am going to focus on this as I head into the new year and try to get back to my old self.
I hope you all have a wonderful 2017!